i truly understand what it is that u were trying to say now...duh!  i should have know that!  is it possible to have a blond moment if u are a brunette?  if so i had one the other day...anyways...i have been through some things in my life that werent the greatest.  Now i look at those things and i see how awful they were and how great i have it now.  It makes me realize how good i have it and how bad it could be.  So u were very brilliant with what u said.  I also know that going through bad times makes u stronger so that u can deal with more bad things.  I liked the whole cake analogy...but i like cake, so i substitued steak in there instead. Its kinda funny because u were talking about the onions and it made me think of how when i was a little girl i hated steak and roast and i would refuse to eat it.  Sometimes when we had that for dinner my mom would give me something else to eat like a hamburger or hotdog and i cherished it bc i remembered how bad the steak was.  It nice to have some good advice...thank you very much. 

anyways...hoping everything is good in arizona...later

mell 

Hello again!  Its good that u are going to have a good summer and i wish u the absolute best with whatever u do...it sounds like ure trying to figure out ur life...i dont know but i guess u kinda lost me there with all that smart talk and all.  Maybe its just cuz i cant focus today...who knows...heck i dont even know!  But, to kinda clear up any confusion...at first i really thought that the summer was going to suck and all but the thing is that i actually like to work.  Not only that but i will DEFINATELY make time to do something fun every once in a while.  The thing im going to like about summer is that i will make lots of money and hey...who doesnt love money?  Right now im working towards getting a different pickup.  Not that the one i have isnt good and that i dont cherish what i have...its just that im ready for something different and something that i actually get to choose.  The pickup i have now is my sisters old one and i got it when she got a new truck so i didnt really get a choice in what i got u know.  The summer wont be that bad but i appreciate what u had to say, so thank u!

The thing im trying to say is that i didnt really follow u when u were talking about the whole getting a taste of things being bad and seeing them get better.  Does what u were saying have anything to do with "your" story?  I guess im just kinda lost right now is all.  A little explanation would be nice if that is in any way possible. 

Another thing is that after school is over i wont have that hour every day to work on my space and to talk to u very often.  I will try my absolute hardest to make time to do it but its going to be a little complicated.  What im trying to say is that if i dont respond for days, maybe even weeks on end, that its not bc i dont want to talk to u...its bc im busy. 

guess thats all for now...gtg..later

mell